Barbara

11:41 am

i miss seeing your smile in the morning when i wake up, i miss my girl who is so far away.
i miss my friends from high school and i still wonder how they are at times. i miss talking to them and hanging out at their house. i hope they know i still think of them.

Current Mood: blah

04:31 pm - yea

i just turned 21 and i feel great. ahh the power. hehe just jokeing.

Current Mood: sleepy

09:41 am

i could not belive my ears when i heard this morning on the news that a school was shot up. what is going on in this planet

08:21 am

i miss my cosin and friends in denver i miss being happy i miss my mom. i miss living without being scared all the time i miss my ex-girlfriend i miss haveing a girlfriend i miss haveing a voice.

08:28 am

You scored as Tara Maclay. You're soft-hearted and soft-spoken. You do get nervous, especially when around new people, but it passes. You love your loved ones and would do anything to help them. </td> Tara Maclay 71% Willow Rosenberg 67% Anya 67% Rupert Giles 58% Buffy Summers 54% Dawn Summers 54% Spike 54% Xander Harris 54% Which Buffy The Vampire Slayer Character Are You Most Like!? created with QuizFarm.com

08:05 am

omg omg omg. taylor from american idol won last night. i am so happy. and when clay came out to sing i jumped out of my seat. i wounder when the l-word is comeing back on. and degrassi is heating up and i love south of nowere.

Current Mood: happy

05:10 pm - my Angel baby is growing up too fast:(

well i found out that my beautiful baby niece is growing teeth and crawling and it just makes me sader and sader. i hate liveing so far away from her. i am missing all of her first.

- her first tooth
- her first word
- her first baby food
- next i will probly miss her first step
and her first giggle

it sucks so much because ever since i found out my angel was coming i loved her with all my heart and i am missing everything about this preciuse life. the little things everyone would want to watch. i could really cry just thinking about it.

GRRRRRR Hehe that reminds me of the episode of buffy the vampire slayer were giles is leaving and tara gives him a little finger puppet and say's GRRRRR. it was cute. i loved her, and miss her. Tara&Willow will live in my heart forever. cuteist couple on the face of this earth.

Current Mood: brrrr

03:33 pm

Current Mood: surprised

04:15 pm

12:22 pm

All through high school i either ate by myself or ate with peaple and hear them make plans for the day or week and know that i am not invited like going to partys, or just hanging out. and it is still happning. thats how it feels anyway. why is it that were ever i go i am an outsider or outcast.

Current Mood: pissed off

12:04 pm

07:52 am - Don't cry 4 me

don't cry for me when i am gone
for i am not in pain.
i do not see
i do not feel
i am gone

i will be waiting to
greet you at the otherside
look up at the sky, you will see me
i'll be the brigtest one way up high
i'll be surrounded by the one's
who have come and gone before us.

don't cry form me
i won't hear. i love
you and am with u always.
you will see me in your
child, and grandchild.
you will hear me...
and feel me come by w/the
cool of the breeze.

i will be their to comfert you
when your scared or hurt.
i love u forever
so please don't be sad.
you'll see me again.
i will wait to meet you at the gate.

please don't cry for me when i am gone.
i am not here.
only in some way's
i am.

Current Mood: blah

04:00 pm - yay

Current Mood: awake

02:56 pm

Mother and darter reunion
ten months since the last time
i saw your face
heard your voice
each night hopeing that
you are
ok.
danm wish you were
still here
to wath me
grow
up. god had
other plans
someone,
somewere,
needed an angel
and that was
you.
now all i got
is memories.
danm
i wish you were here
so i wait
i wait until i get
to see you
again in heaven.

Current Mood: blank

01:19 pm

You fit in with: Spiritualism Your ideals are mostly spiritual, but in an individualistic way. While spirituality is very important in your life, organized religion itself may not be for you. It is best for you to seek these things on your own terms. 40% spiritual. 80% reason-oriented.

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09:46 am

i hear people say you shouldn't give a danm. tophen up your heart till it is as cold as ice. saying if you start to care, start thinking about everything that is going on from...

1. people dyeing of aids
2. kids killing kids
3. women getting raped
4. gay bashing
5. ethnic clensing around the globe. ect.
"it's their problem!" i hear all the time. i say it is our problem. staying silent..
now thats what kills and that's what hurts. so my queastions now is...
what are WE going to do about.



just a little rant. i got in my head after watching everything thats going on in the news.

Current Mood: aggravated

04:26 pm - When your scared. a poem

when your scared and
feel the walls closeing in
close your eye's...
think of flowers in spring
fuzzy baby animal faces.
friends or count to 10

when you scared
you feel the thing you fear
the most will never stop
never go away. remember
nothing last for ever.
so take a deep breath,
count to 10, think of
friends, 'cause
the thing you fear
the most will
eventuly end.

3/30/06

Current Mood: anxious

03:56 pm - why do i feel bad on such a beautiful day

i am so tired right now and i have had a migrane for a long time and i can't get rid of it. i would go to the doctor but i don't have time. i won't be able to till probly next year because i am so busy. ohh well i guess that is just the luck of the draw. i just hope i am feeling better before summer hits. i will i just need to catch up on some rest. i have been up late this past week. i did get a new notebook today with a very cute fuzzy puppy face on it. it is so cute i just want to pick her up and cuddle but she is just a picture. my head is really killing me right now so i am just going to go and close my eyes.

Current Mood: sick

04:57 pm - a poem for the world

this poem is for every body who has ever felt alone. or different.

i am a person you can talk too.
i am someone who cares.
i am the sun breaking through the clouds
and i am the rain showering the fruits you eat.
i am an angel wathing over the young and the young at heart.
i am the conciance of the person holding the gun trying to put it down
i am the parents working hard to get their kids through college
and the son trying to get out of a gang.
i am writhing for the women who have been beatin and raped and for the men
who think they can get away with it. it does not make you a man.
i am speaking for the gay teen kicked out of the house
and for the homeless person praying to survive another harsh winter night.
i am spaking for the world...
when it cannot speak...
for itself.
this poem of mine is published somewere out on the internet.other then lj

Current Mood: we are all the same

07:56 pm - yahooo

Man i just tried contry danceing and it was so much fun. i can't belive i have not done that before. i so doing it from here on in.